Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Sickness Please Go Away!!!

Well I find myself wide awake at 3 o'clock in the morning.  This is from sleeping probably 32 of the past 48 hours due to being sick since last Friday.  The other is the storms that moved in which made my puppy nervous and have an accident which involved giving him a bath. Now I find myself awake and not really wanting to go to bed because it will be hard for me to get up when I need to so i can get the little one to school.  Instead I find myself researching everything from LuLaRoe outfits, to KetoDiet Recipes and interview tips.  I have a job interview coming up on Thursday and I am hoping for the best.

Time to go.


Thursday, February 23, 2017

Why Bother?

There are times in my life when I think to myself "Why Bother?"  This is when I start going down my depression train of thought.  I think of things like how every ex has left me,  how I am struggling to find a job,  how i don't have maybe one or two friends who actually make and keep plans with me.  This week has been tough.  I found myself wanting to lay in my bed with the dog cuddled in and just sleep the day away after I take my daughter to school.  This would be easy to do and to just accept and let that be my life.

Today was a different day it was 71 and sunny.  I opened up the windows and just sat with a coloring book coloring a picture that stated "Enjoy your journey"  This made me think about my journey.  Yes I have had several things I could play the poor me game on but that gets me nowhere but laying in my bed.  All that will just keep me in the same rut I am in.  I want it to change I got to be the change no one else can do it but me.

How do I do this?  I  forgive those who hurt me.  I keep myself from going to bed once I drop my daughter off to school.  I create a schedule and stick to it.  This includes working on a meal plan and going on a diet.  I also need to work on getting in shape mentally.  This will include spending time in meditating.  I also plan on getting in shape spiritually by continuing my daily devotions and talks/ prayers with God.

Will I succeed at all of this.  Yes.
Will it be right away.  Probably Not I may stumble along the way.

Time To go for now.
May God Bless You.