Thursday, February 23, 2017

Why Bother?

There are times in my life when I think to myself "Why Bother?"  This is when I start going down my depression train of thought.  I think of things like how every ex has left me,  how I am struggling to find a job,  how i don't have maybe one or two friends who actually make and keep plans with me.  This week has been tough.  I found myself wanting to lay in my bed with the dog cuddled in and just sleep the day away after I take my daughter to school.  This would be easy to do and to just accept and let that be my life.

Today was a different day it was 71 and sunny.  I opened up the windows and just sat with a coloring book coloring a picture that stated "Enjoy your journey"  This made me think about my journey.  Yes I have had several things I could play the poor me game on but that gets me nowhere but laying in my bed.  All that will just keep me in the same rut I am in.  I want it to change I got to be the change no one else can do it but me.

How do I do this?  I  forgive those who hurt me.  I keep myself from going to bed once I drop my daughter off to school.  I create a schedule and stick to it.  This includes working on a meal plan and going on a diet.  I also need to work on getting in shape mentally.  This will include spending time in meditating.  I also plan on getting in shape spiritually by continuing my daily devotions and talks/ prayers with God.

Will I succeed at all of this.  Yes.
Will it be right away.  Probably Not I may stumble along the way.

Time To go for now.
May God Bless You.


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