There are times in my life when I think to myself "Why Bother?" This is when I start going down my depression train of thought. I think of things like how every ex has left me, how I am struggling to find a job, how i don't have maybe one or two friends who actually make and keep plans with me. This week has been tough. I found myself wanting to lay in my bed with the dog cuddled in and just sleep the day away after I take my daughter to school. This would be easy to do and to just accept and let that be my life.
Today was a different day it was 71 and sunny. I opened up the windows and just sat with a coloring book coloring a picture that stated "Enjoy your journey" This made me think about my journey. Yes I have had several things I could play the poor me game on but that gets me nowhere but laying in my bed. All that will just keep me in the same rut I am in. I want it to change I got to be the change no one else can do it but me.
How do I do this? I forgive those who hurt me. I keep myself from going to bed once I drop my daughter off to school. I create a schedule and stick to it. This includes working on a meal plan and going on a diet. I also need to work on getting in shape mentally. This will include spending time in meditating. I also plan on getting in shape spiritually by continuing my daily devotions and talks/ prayers with God.
Will I succeed at all of this. Yes.
Will it be right away. Probably Not I may stumble along the way.
Time To go for now.
May God Bless You.
Marcey
